Self portrait , silent narrative …. Feeling strange .
” I don’t mind feeling strange
and I’m not startled by
the sound of my own loneliness…
I’m never really alone
You can relate
to all
the strangeness I have known.
you know …
we’re always changing
and it changes us
it’s really not all that strange
at all ….”
Lyrics are copyrighted to “the sad band ” song , “feeling strange ” by Jaime Childers
process photos above. .
This project has gone through many stages and changes throughout the process of making it and working out my concept . I really was trying to simplify as much as possible the concept. Working on the project started off as the catalyst being the word MILF (mother I’d like to fuck )and then I created an alternative anagram for female sexuality called the WWLF (women who like to fuck) I created this alternative anagram using the same type of slang terminology that they use with the MILF . I thought by using the same type of crude language that is used to describe sexuality for females I could combat it and create a more empowering and positive view on sexuality however through this process and playing with words, different word combinations and through language I thought I could create an empowering word or phrase /anagram that could convey this . However, through this process and playing with language I multiple combinations and researching language to describe sexual females or language sexualizing women I general , I realized that it was really a completely different type of language and way to think about sex that I needed to create and a phrase that had nothing to do with the crude or slang terminology used to describe females and sexuality in relation to others especially. So , after much debate much writing and research I found a saying that I thought describe what I’m trying to get across beautiful ” great minds fuck each other” . Of course the word fuck is used and it is slang however, what I believe comes across is the idea that women, smart confident wome and smart confident men know that sex is a mutual interaction and exchange and that no one is giving or getting anything more than the other. But heathy sexuality is a respectful equal experience and in this way this is a positive empowering affirmation for female sexuality and male sexuality .
I was going to project a mad libs like game onto a frat house only using positive words to describe female sexuality , however it really did not sing to me I did not feel that motivated or attached to this idea and I’ve come to believe maybe all of my work doesn’t have to be so confrontational or controversial but has to be meaningful to me and make me proud of the work. So I chose to instead of fighting the forces and language that is negative to describe sexuality that I would only embrace the empowering and positive expression of what I believe healthy sexuality can be and that all human beings are capable of. I decided to appeal to a higher level of intelligence in my audience rather than combating the ignorance of the Language interjected into culture that is negative and degrades women and insults good men. I used a sculpture to project this new phrase onto and I believe that because sex is a very physical thing that therefore it’s very relevant that I used a physical sculpture of a woman. I love making sculptures and when I came into this program it was my hope that I would be able to take the sculptures that I love making and move them for 3-D into 4D. In this way I feel that my project is not a failure but I’m proud of the outcome . The simple projection of these words onto my sculpture give it another layer and more depth than it would have without the use of this technology. I realize that this is just the beginning of my using technology in my art making and because it’s a success I feel in this project I feel very motivated and inspired to create more works of art that incorporate even more technology to give my sculptures even more depth and I realize that this is just the beginning of my using technology in my art making and because it’s a success to me. I feel in this project has In the end , motivated and inspired me to create more art that incorporates more technology to give my sculptures even more depth and dynamic appeal .
Open frameworks lecture /talk was a very enlightening experience . Being someone who is not very tech savvy as of yet , I love that there are a diverse group of scholars , experts and people working in digital practices and coding working to make this sort of work more accessible and user friendly to a broader audience .
They were all so gracious and knowledge and personable in their explanations , answers and genuine care for making digital practices less mysterious to those not well versed or experienced in the field . It was great hearing that not a all of them started off so skilled themselves and that through teaching out to peers , mentors , professors and other working professionals , they slowly but surely became skilled and with this I started feeling less alienated from the idea of myself becoming skilled in these areas of practice myself. In this way it was an inspiring and motivating experience for me .
Cultural event , Is mine yours ? At New Core studio
Possible phrases that encourage positive ideas about female sexuality ……
inside her is a ——– she ——-
Because she is —— of who she is .
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She is not ……. Of what she wants . She embraces her …….
And finds ….. In her sexuality .
Her …… Is important to her . She …… Herself and wants to own her …… And doesn’t need …… To feel wanted or desired .
She doesn’t listen to what others …….. Concerning herself and her sexuality . She is ……. In who she is and wants to …… her …… When she wants and with whom she wants to .
She doesn’t feel ……. About ……. Things that are ……… , in pop culture . she creates her own ……. Of who she is as a …….. Person .
She knows herself ……… And doesn’t define herself as a …….. But as a …….., and this makes her a …….. Kind of woman who loves ……
These are some words the audience can pick from to fill I the blanks . However I’m with raking o anther sort of mad line was th some more freedimlike the order final or where i only dictate what part of speech should be used in the blanks . Insist deciding on images to be projected over .
( Passion , desire , need , want
Embrace ,loves , fulfills , protects
Proud , aware , accepting , embraces
Ashamed , sexuality , joy , pride , identity
Womanhood , sexual life , desire , expression , approval, acceptance , male acceptance , acceptance from others , think, say , feel
Independent , joyful, confident
Express , own , experience ,
Sexuality, femaleness , desirability ,
men , culture , others, people , social media
Ashamed , dirty , insecure , embarrassed , needy
Sex, relationships , connecting , body image ,
Sexual , private, said , thought , advertised , promoted , shown , created
Idea , definition, expression
Sexual , desirable , attractive , confident ,
Intimately , in detail , sexually ,
Woman, sex object , idea
Whole , sexual being ,
Confident , autonomous , beautiful , proud, loving , creative , intimate , erotic , desirable
Sex, herself
The This is intended to be publicly projected on a building on campus , most likely a frat house ….
Quotes of images , searches for culturally accepted ideas about sexuality and gender
Quotes found on sexually empowered women search
MILF quotes search
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Women who love sex quotes search
Quotes of images , searches for culturally accepted ideas about sexuality and gender
Women who love sex quotes search
MILF quotes search
Quotes found on sexually empowered women search
I am honestly in a bit of discrepancy with myself …
Whereas before in my project I was doing a comparison or differentiation of the WWLF vs MILF , I think now I should completely move away from the MILF . Perhaps focusing on the positives of female sexuality , especially female sexuality after 20 something , I can create a empowering dialogue instead of an argument . I tend to be passionate about these sort of topics and sometimes I’ve realized I want to point out just how stupid something’s involving female sexuality are . I still think these particulars are very ignorant but perhaps instead of pointing out how stupid they are , creating an alternative model and ignoring the negative models already existing is even more powerful .
In this case , I’ve been playing with the idea of my word game to only express positive images through words about women .
I keep in mind that positive doesn’t have to be proper . It’s the intent . So to say ” I love my pussy ” however slang it may be and crude even , it is not negative . It is not violent or objectifying .
However I do realize the word pussy and it’s neg/pos connotations is a whole different discussion . But in my project , I want to emphasis the WWLF, and for the woman who is WWLF , it is how she identifies with her own sexuality , not in relation to someone else .
So, for the WWLF to say I love my pussy , it is not degrading . It is empowering and self assured .
I tried the use of non slang words , but it doesn’t work. Firstly , because that isn’t who a WWLF is . The WWLF is asexual creature but is not ok with being objectified and used as a source of novelty. The biggest thing though is that it’s her that embraces her sexuality . She is saying ” I love to fuck ” not waiting for someone to deem her worthy enough to be fucked despite age and motherhood as the MILF is .
The idea of the WWLF is also to express that women are just as sexual as men but through decades of media saying differently , many people have come to believe this vvnot true .
One slogan I kept finding on the internet that highlights thus misconception that is accepted in society is women use sex to get love , men use love to get sex …tWow . This is why a MWLF wouldn’t work . We don’t have to advocate for men who love to fuck as an alternative to men who are being mass generalized as novelty things to be fucked according to their outward appearance .
By focusing on the positives of females vwho embrace their sexuality as a healthy expression and aspect of oneself, I hope to bring awareness that innately men and women are not that different … and the need to categorize women is unnessscary .
Brainstorm images …..
On popular culture sexual ideas about gender
In the second phase of my project I’d like to understand ad make more sense of the language . I believe I need to pair dow my word possibilities and also make it a less black/white , good /bad outcome that I first asked the audience to respond to the Random word phrases with either offensive /empowering , negative /positive in terms of female sexuality .
I am also will derail my about material choice …. If I can digitally print a set of 6-8 objects that can be printed with 3-4 words on each to be spun like the spools were but with more structure I those word choice categories so the outcome isn’t as Random or discoected I meaning or thought…
Therefore I have been playing in rhino 3D and Blender to see if I can make this technically happen.
jaime maureen 